There's a saying something about those who don't know history are doomed to repeat it. Or something like that. Well...i've decided that sometimes that is crap. Because quite frankly, i just don't think people should look back. It's not always a pretty sight. I'm not a person who enjoys looking back. While there are good things behind me...there are some ugly things behind me too. These ugly things may have names...and may be people. So here's to not looking back...and instead always looking forward. To hell with repeating history, i'd rather repeat it, than relive it.

I've been having very vivid dreams. For those of who you know me well, you know that it is not unusual to have sleeping problems. I have had some semblance of a sleep disorder since i was about 12. You name it...insomnia, nightmares, sleep walking, not staying asleep, excessive daytime drowsiness, and now ridiculously vivid dreams. Now some of you may think vivid dreams are very cool (and by vivid dreams i mean, they feel real and i wake up feeling like i have actually done whatever was going on in the dream. After discussing dreams with several people it has become clear that i dream very differently than most people), but in reality they are not. I wake up exhausted. I don't feel rested at all. I fall asleep at work, i have fallen asleep driving home from work in traffic, and i almost always need a nap after work. I get 7.5 hours of sleep a night, work out regularly, and eat healthy. So i can only assume it is the dreams that are making me tired. Well, last night i went to bed, and dreamed what i would consider normally. Not excessively vivid, and today i feel completely refreshed! I couldn't believe the difference! I didn't have a hard time waking up, i wasn't tired in the afternoon, i didn't take a nap, and i even had energy to do the dishes and other chores. It was amazing!! I supposed this is how i'm supposed to feel all the time. It's one of those things that you don't realize how tired you really are until you aren't tired anymore.

I've done a little internet search on vivid dreams disturbing sleep, but i haven't really seen anything that rings any bells. Research does say that vivid dreaming does in fact disturb sleep, and there are many reasons for this dreaming. But none of them apply to me. Reasons include menopause, certain medications, and stress. I'm too young for one, i'm on no new medication, and i'm more relaxed than i have been in years. So i'm out of ideas at this point. I did manage to sleep great last night though, so i'm hoping to repeat this again tonight.

Don't wish me sweet dreams...please wish for no dreams.

So i haven't posted in a while. But here i am! My hand is good. So far no problems. Every once in a while it feels a little funny, but it seems that it has finally decided to behave. Work=good. Alex=good. There are the updates.

Pet Peeve of the day:

People who stand at the exit ramp of the highway with their sob story signs begging for money. All the while they are smoking a cigarette, and standing on a corner that has a McDonald's with a "Now Hiring" sign. I refuse to give money to someone, when all they have to do is turn around and say "would you like fries with that?" Wouldn't it be easier to work in a fast food restaurant than to stand out in 95 degree weather in the direct sun for hours hoping to make a few bucks. At least at McDonald's, you work inside and are guaranteed a certain amount of money. Rant over.

I am watching the news and they are discussing the start of the new school year and all the hopes for that especially with the new uniforms. In the background is a big pregnant teenager, not in uniform. Now thats hope for ya.