So i'm feeling a little stressed out these days. The move is less than a month away, and for some reason i'm kinda freaking out a little. Nothing major...just a little anxiety. I'm worried that i have all these hopes for a better life in indy, and i'm concerned that i'm only going to be disappointed. I'm worried i won't like working in the new lab, and that i won't like living in Indy. I can't possibly imagine it being worse than Fort Wayne...but i honestly haven't felt "at home" anywhere since I left Rose-Hulman. What made that place feel like home was the people, and i'm hoping since the important people will be living in Indy...i'll get a similar feeling when i move. I'm tired of feeling misplaced, but I know that i won't be living in indy forever. Secretly...i kinda want to settle down and buy a house somewhere. But at this moment, i know Indy is not that place. Maybe that'll change once i get there and settle into a life there, but i'll never get used to the Indiana winters. Anyway...enough of my whining.

The biggest problem with all this is i don't do well with change. I'm not good at changing my routine and i don't like uprooting myself. It would just be nice to know that i don't have to do that anymore. But i know at least one more move is inevitable. And i'm pretty sure more will happen. I hope one day that i'll be like my parents and find a place that i just want to stay forever.