So i colored my hair today. It's a little redder than i wanted. I'm a little...nervous. I'll get used to it. Right?

Article on Breastfeeding

Ya know what...i don't have a problem with a woman breastfeeding in public. It's natural...and part of having a baby.

However...why do some women feel it is necessary that they be able to have their breasts hanging out simply because they are a new mother. It's bad enough new and expectant mothers get better parking spots...but now they have to be allowed to have their breast flopping all over the place? Seriously...cover that up! I know there's this whole argument that we as a society are not comfortable with the functional part of breasts blah blah blah. And while all that may be true i don't think it excuses these women. Is it really that much of an inconvenience for you to place a blanket over your breast and your baby. We all know what you're doing...so if you're going for the display "HEY LOOK AT ME!! I BREASTFEED MY BABY!!!!" you have accomplished it. In the above article, there is a particular woman who was offended b/c they wanted her to cover up in the restaurant. They were not asking her to leave...or to stop all together. No...only to cover up. I think that's a perfectly reasonable request. You're in a restaurant for God's sake!

I get that it's natural...a part of life and should be treated as such. However...pissing is too. And we can't do that in public! Now some of you may thinking that pissing in public creates a hazard with human waste being out in public....but what if you pee in a bottle? Particularly if you are a man....yeah your penis is exposed...but hey! it's not functioning as a sexual organ at that moment...but as a functional one. Isn't that what these lactivists are screaming about? So i recommend we all have a "piss in". Similar to the "nurse ins"...for all the same reasons! Who's with me?!

Humiliation thy name is Audra.

Brett tried to be my friend on myspace. I sent him a message saying to not be my friend b/c a part of me still loves him. Yeah...i definitely had a momentary lapse of judgment there. Anyway...nausea quickly set in after i realized i had pushed send. In the words of Jackie "don't you wish there was an 'undo' button for life?" How incredibly true that statement is. So clearly i'm having some attachment issues. Either that or it's been so long since i've actually cared about anyone that i'm confusing love with disinterest. Any luck that's it? Oh yeah...and he has a girlfriend. That probably didn't help the brief moment of break down. Suck. At least i'll be so busy with the move that i won't be able to dwell on anything. That's what i'm hoping for.

Somedays...i wish i wasn't such a Scorpio.

So i'm feeling a little stressed out these days. The move is less than a month away, and for some reason i'm kinda freaking out a little. Nothing major...just a little anxiety. I'm worried that i have all these hopes for a better life in indy, and i'm concerned that i'm only going to be disappointed. I'm worried i won't like working in the new lab, and that i won't like living in Indy. I can't possibly imagine it being worse than Fort Wayne...but i honestly haven't felt "at home" anywhere since I left Rose-Hulman. What made that place feel like home was the people, and i'm hoping since the important people will be living in Indy...i'll get a similar feeling when i move. I'm tired of feeling misplaced, but I know that i won't be living in indy forever. Secretly...i kinda want to settle down and buy a house somewhere. But at this moment, i know Indy is not that place. Maybe that'll change once i get there and settle into a life there, but i'll never get used to the Indiana winters. Anyway...enough of my whining.

The biggest problem with all this is i don't do well with change. I'm not good at changing my routine and i don't like uprooting myself. It would just be nice to know that i don't have to do that anymore. But i know at least one more move is inevitable. And i'm pretty sure more will happen. I hope one day that i'll be like my parents and find a place that i just want to stay forever.

More surveyish fun!

It's trying to use my first initial to answer all these questions.

Audra

1. Athlete: Andre Agassi

2. 4 letter word: aura

3. Street name: Alpine (street i grew up on)

4. Color: Aqua

5. Gifts/presents: alarm clock (got it for christmas)

6. Vehicles: Audi

7. Tropical Locations: Aruba

8. College Majors: Aerospace Engineering

9. Dairy Products: I got nothing

10. Things in a Souvenir Shop: Automobile stickers

11. Boy Name: Andrew

12. Girl Name: Allison

13. Movie Titles: An Affair to Remember

14. Alcohol: Absolut

15. Occupations: Architect

16. Flower: African Violet

17. Celebrities: Angelina Jolie

18. Magazines: American Journal of Forensic Science?

19. U.S. Cities: Albany, New York

20. Pro Sports Teams: Atlanta Falcons

Man have i been a busy girl! I went to Indy on Saturday and found myself an apartment. It's a one bedroom with a den, 841 square feet. I'm so ready to move in. I came back from Indy on saturday and spent all day sunday doing laundry and stuff. monday was spent taking down the christmas tree, finishing laundry, cleaning the apartment, and packing stuff up.

Today i went to the new lab and scoped out my desk. It's huge! It's so much more space than i have right now. The work space is also huge. I have my own hood, my own sampling area, my own extraction area. It's great. I can't wait until February. The move is officially Feb. 17, so i'll be pretty busy between now and then. So i apologize in advance if there are sparce blogs.

A funny story to share with you all though. A friend of mine asked me out to a movie for last weekend. Although we've gone out before it seemed that this time it was different. i.e. we're talking date here. So saturday we were supposed to go to a movie. He texted me in the middle of the day on and says "i can't go out tonight b/c money is really tight". Okay...that's fine whatever. So i suggested that we just watch a movie at my place. It's free after all. But i never heard back from him. I get a text the next morning saying "by the way...i think you're really attractive so that made me nervous last night". What??!!! Excuse me?! That's definitely the first time i've ever heard that excuse. So what exactly does that mean? I mean...seriously! I'm sure there have been guys who were nervous about going out with me....but none of them ever cancelled on me b/c they thought i was pretty. Where do i find these people? Anyway, he apologized and asked if we could start over. Normally i would say no...but...since i'm leaving in a month...i figure why not go out and have some fun. It's only temporary anyway.

I'm finally not sick anymore. Yeah! I have managed to recover after the horrible flu. This is a little late for this...but it's the first chance i've had to get around to it.

It's RESOLUTION time! It's that time when i make promises to myself and then spend the entire year feeling awful b/c i realize i have absolutely no will power to keep my resolution(s). But...i do it every year anyway...b/c believe it or not...i'm a sucker for traditions. I know some people think this is totally stupid (read: Hayley) and that the first of the year shouldn't be anymore special than the 134 day of the year...but i'm gonna do it anyway!

Resolution 1: I will stop pining for the man i can't have

Resolution 2: I would like 50% of my wardrobe to be a size 4

Resolution 3: Revive my social life i.e. going out with my girlfriends at least once a month

And there you have it. I think that all three of these resolutions are easily attainable. The first one being the most difficult and the third one being the easiest.

Survey time b/c i'm still sickly

Do you have the following in your bedroom:

Condoms: yes

Chair/stool: a chair with a care bear cushion

Book shelf: nope that's in the living room

Dresser: yes and it is full to the brim

Computer/laptop: living room again

Bean bag: i gave mine up when i was like 14

Mirror: full length and one over my dresser

Skateboard: nope

Clothes on the floor: nope...just folded it all

Surfboard: i live in Indiana...what would i do with a surfboard?

Plants: nope...if i did they'd all be dead

Smoke detector: no...i only have one next to the kitchen...and even that is unplugged, yes...i like to live dangerously

Piano/keyboard/Guitar/bass/drums: no musical instruments of any kind

Locking door: i think it locks...i've never tried

Bottle of water: nope...but i recently had a glass in there

Blacklight: nope

medals/ribbons: College Diploma and my tassle from my college cap.

Awards: see above?

CDs: those are all in the car

Flag: no flags anywhere

Stop sign/any sign: nope

Paintball/Airsoft gun: nope

Real Gun: not yet

Cigarettes: non smoker!

Pot: as in for plants? No.

Any drug: that's what a medicin cabinet is for

Alcohol: nope...tequila is kept in the freezer

Books: my book goes between the living room and bedroom, right now it's Eragon

Nintendo: nope

Xbox: nope, but i would like a play station

stereo: living room

Television: see above

Lighter: dining room

Gum: nope

how many windows do you have in your room: 1

What is the color of your walls: white

Do you get ready for the day in your room or the bathroom? bathroom

What color are your bed sheets: cream, i'm so boring!

How long have you been in that room: 2 years, i'll be moving soon though! yeah!!

What's on your walls: diploma, mirror, calendar, shadow box with fairies, butterfly design and corresponding japanese letters to match (Love and Happiness)

Has the opposite sex been in your room before: yes

It's official. The flu sucks. At least the nausea has gone away...but now i've got these cold chills and then hot flashes. Gawd! And it sucks having to take care of yourself. I wish my momma were here. Did i ever mention that i get real whiney when i'm sick? Oh...and the only thing i had any energy for today was a shower...and about half way through i realized if i didn't hurry up, i was gonna fall asleep in the shower. Suck. Alright...done whining.

Survey b/c i feel icky.

FINISH THE SENTENCES.

1. I've come to realize that my last kiss...
was with a man who is WAY too old for me. And it really freaked me out.

2. I am listening to...
Gilmore Girls and my snoring dog.

3. I talk...
loudly about politics

4. I love...
reading books

5. My best friend...
is doped up on pain meds right now. The other one is my devil.

6. My first real kiss...
was sloppy and moderately disgusting.

8. I hate it when people ask....
"Why aren't you married yet?" or "You mean you haven't found yourself a nice man yet?"

9. Love is...
something i haven't experienced in 2 years, so it's hard for me to remember.

10. Marriage is...
something i find utterly terrifying.

11. Somewhere, someone is thinking...
i need a drink.

12. I'll always...
do great things.

13. I have a secret crush...
on Hugh Jackman. But i'm pretty sure it's no secret.

14. The last time I cried was because...
of a boy. Surprise.

15. My cell phone is:
in desparate need of a new battery.

16. When I wake up in the morning...
i hit the snooze twice.

17. Before I go to bed I...
read a few pages from my book.

18. Right now I am thinking about..
how can i still have a headache after sleeping for 4 hours and 2 ibuprofen?

19. Babies are...
overtaking my life. Everyone i know is pregnant.

20. I get on Myspace...
in hopes that Michelle has posted a new blog.

21. Today I...
think i have either the flu in conjunction with a bad headache, or a migraine.

22. Tonight I will...
be laying on the couch reading a book.

23. Tomorrow I will be...
cleaning, grocery shopping, and watching grey's anatomy.

24. I really want to be...
feeling better. I don't like being sick b/c i get whiney.

It's been a while since i posted. It was difficult to get any time away during vacation. 15 Currys in one house doesn't lend well to privacy. But i did get to see Hayley!! That was great! We went to a bar and played trivia...and totally kicked local ass, at least on one game.

I drove back on the 30th and Jackie came up. We went shopping that day, and i finally convinced Jackie that Fort Wayne has an unusually high number of ugly people. I have discussed this phenomenom before and i don't think anyone believed me. Well now finally someone does. She was amazed at the fact that there weren't any hot guys at the mall...and none at the bar we went to either. So now she's started to refer to people as "Fort Wayne hot" which means that you would consider sleeping with this guy with the lights on. Geesh. We went to Columbia Street West. There was a really great band playing there and the lead singer was pretty cute. After they finished playing we talked briefly...and he said i was hot. He wanted me to look him up on myspace. So i came home (in a drunken stupor i might add) and looked him up. Dude...he totally has a girlfriend. That is so shady.

On the way home we took a cab. The cab driver drove us around the block a few times trying to charge us more money. When i realized what was going on i said something to him. I was drunk...so i was probably a little snickety. Well...the next thing i know he starts screaming at me! Then he threatens to drop us off in the middle of a park at 3:00 AM. Talk about scary. Well...jackie calms me down (b/c at this point i'm yelling back) and the driver down and we finally get home. But not after he ripped us off for a few bucks.

Next weekend i'm going to Indy to apartment hunt. I have two picked out, and unless one of them is just in a terrible neighborhood, I'm pretty sure which one i want to move to. That's about all that's going on here. Things are going to get pretty busy with the move, but I'll try and keep you all up to date.

Oh...for those who are curious how old OB Al is...he is 44. The same age as my mom. Scary.