I'm not feeling any better than yesterday. I'm having the same thoughts I did yesterday. This has actually put me in a quite a funk. But the nap after work helped me feel a little better. But the funk is still there. Today on myspace i saw my ex boyfriend's site. I haven't seen him in 5 or so years. I think the last time was after my freshman year in college. Anyway...it was weird. He has a daughter in the first grade, and a son. And he's really into Star Wars. It seems like a life time ago when we dated. So much has changed. I've dated several other guys, and have had my heart broken. He's got kids. Weird. It's hard to imagine a time when we dated. But we did, for like 2 years. Just weird is all.
posted by Audra @ 5:07 PM
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weird is right. I was shocked to see him on the site, but very happy to know he's still alive - and apparently on a more sane track than the last time I saw him.
PS - Everyone is married and have kids. It's fucking nuts. I mean I understand the urge. I'd love to have kids right now. But I'd also love to have great kids and give them a great chance, so I'm going to wait another 6 years or so. Finacially stable, mentally ready, and a little more grown up seem to be the best way to have kids. I don't want fucked up kids. I want good, smart kids who will contribute to society. help me. I've gone crazy.
-hay
What about us men. All you ladies keep getting knocked up and having baby dadies.
Anyone i seem to fall for or like they have a kid. So i either have to suck it up and be with her or i dont. My problem is i want to enjoy my woman or wife for a few years before i have a kid. You know travel, have dinner, go to a concert and maybe sit around holding her for hours for no reason at all. But i have to get a woman with a kid who will suck up any of that time.
I dont want to enjoy my wife at the age of 45 or 50. I want to enjoy her when im young and old.
billy
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