How come paying off a credit card is like pulling god damn teeth??

More to come later....

So...for the last couple of days i've been fighting with my cable company. They double charged me for the month of July so i had to put a stop payment on it and go through my bank and all this crap. And then the cable company started sending me nasty notes saying they were gonna shut off my cable and start charging me and that i better return my equipment blah blah blah...oh and then they shut my internet off. So i call on friday and they can't help me and say i need to go down to my local branch. Well...it just so happens that friday morning i called a woman from the credit dept. of comcast. She called me back today and got things all straightened out. So i got my 60 bucks back...however...they're somehow still doing an automatic debit for this month....and they're gonna take out the full amount (including the return check fee) so i'm gonna pay more for cable and internet this month but it'll credit so that next month will be less. So i get all this taken care of finally...and a knock comes on my door at about 7:00 pm. I answer it...and the first thing out of this guy's mouth is "I'm from Comcast". So i'm thinking, "For shit's sake people!! I've already handled this...you're gonna come knocking on my freakin' door b/c you fucked up??!" But...i didn't say anything. So he wanted to offer me a special on people who don't have cable already. I told him that I did...and then he said..."well what about internet" and i said "i have that too". But what i want to know is...how much Comcast can't put out a list to their solicitors saying "This is where NOT to go...b/c they are already customers...and if you keep harassing them...they may not be customers anymore!" Cause pretty damn sure that's how i feel. Talk about freakin' drama. Everything else has been going normal. Went to Allison and Drew's wedding this weekend. Had lots of fun...and got a hot new outfit.

I just had an entire paragraph typed and decided that i didn't really want my blog to go there. So I'm gonna end it here for tonight.

So this is gonna be not as cheerful as my posts normally are. I read an article the other day...that kinda disturbed me a bit. It is about how my generation of women were always taught that they could do whatever they wanted. That's exactly how i was raised. My mom told me that i could do anything and just because i was a woman it didn't matter. So i've always had the opinion that in my life...i would have all the things i wanted. I would have the job i wanted...i would have the husband i wanted...and i would be able to balance the career and family like a regular pro. In fact...it never occured to me that this wouldn't happen. The thought that i wouldn't have the career, or worse the family that i wanted never even crossed my mind. Because my mom said i could do whatever i wanted...and that's what i want. And it would seem that my generation of women have the wishes for their own lives. They, like myself, assume that they can conquer the world and still be home in time to make dinner and play with their children. However, this article emphasises that while this is an incredible goal...it is also incredibly unrealistic. That most of us will not succeed and will have to give up either the career or the family. They said that women who took time off work to raise their children cut their earning potential by more than half. Although taking time off is not something i plan on doing...it's just a little disheartening to hear someone tell me that i can't do it. So i've been thinking about that a lot lately. I've always gotten everything i wanted in life (not necessarily in the monetary sense) and the things that i don't have now...i assume they will be forthcoming in the future. But what if they aren't? What if i am destined to be a lowly chemist for the state of indiana for the rest of my life? Or what if i'm meant to be a spinster and never get married. Or never have children? I'm terrified of hitting 40...and thinking of all the things i haven't gotten to do. Or i think i will never have a chance to do. It's silly...but it's really been bothering me lately. But...how can you make something like that happen in your life? The only way i know is to believe and work hard. Which is what i've always done...but it seems that in the cases of some people that's just not enough. Not everyone grows old and looks back on their life with fond memories. And not everyone lives happily ever after. So...all i can really do is go through and hope for the best. Which...i don't really like that idea. So...really...i don't know what to do. It just makes me a little sad to think there's a possibility that i won't get to do all the things that i want. I just hope if that happens i can be happy with my life.

I know it's been a long time since i've posted. I haven't had a whole lot to say really. Life has been wonderfully boring. Yesterday i had my physical for clan lab team. I didn't know when they did an EKG that they had to freakin' sand paper your skin! That shit hurt! But i'm disgustingly healthy, all i need to do is take some iron supplements and i'll be good as new. I went to a concert last week. I saw Seether, Crossfade and Dark New Day. Dark New Day was okay...Crossfade was mediocre....and Seether while not their best...was still good. So i'm going to Sacramento soon...i'm super duper excited! Well...that's about all i got for now...i promise i'll post more some other time.