Hm...so my computer kinda just totally freaked out. I was in the process of typing and it just all of a sudden shut off. Very interesting. Anyway...this week has been pretty exciting. I've been doing all sorts of neat stuff. On monday i had a "date" with Mike to watch Grey's anatomy and we cooked fajitas (and that's fagitas not fahitas) and it was great. Then...on tuesdays...the WEINER RACES!! They were so fantastic!! It was too bad i couldn't enter columbo. But there was definitely some competition...so we gotta start training soon. :-D Wednesday we had to go to peru and get our blood drawn for clan lab team...and that was definitely an experience to say the least. So yesterday..i killed my first spider without freaking out too much. It was in my bathroom again...but this time it was crawling across the counter instead of in the shower. I can handle that a little bit better i think.

So today i am super excited. I'm going down to Indianapolis for the day and I'm gonna see jackie! I can't wait!!! I haven't seen her since August, and it'll just be fantastic to spend the day with her. Ah i miss my friends from college so much. But at least i get to see them sometimes. Tomorrow will also be fantastic! I'm going to Indiana Beach with Mike and we're gonna have so much time!!! Then i think in the evening i'm going to wedding. :-) So tomorrow will also be a wonderfully busy day. And then, on Sunday, Amanda is coming to see me and we're gonna have a blast! I know what we'll be eating for lunch on Sunday! Long John Silver's here we come!!!! So this weekend is just going to be so fantastic! I can't even explain how much i'm looking forward to these next three days!

It's amazing how much inner peace you can finally achieve when you let go of all the things you can't control and just try and live your life. Also...you'd be amazed how much easier it is to stop trying to hide behind a wall to keep people out. Because in reality, that wall just keeps you in. So...lately i've been experimenting with trying not to control everything and everyone around me, and being open about who i am to people. I've always been the kind to keep people out b/c i didn't want to get hurt, and only a few people actually could see the person on the other side of the wall. And in most cases...i did end up getting hurt. In fact...the only time i haven't been hurt is when it involved a strictly platonic relationship. But...hurt or no...i'm gonna try the whole no hiding thing. And it seems to be working out for me. :-) It appears that on rare occassion...some people actually like the "softer" side of me, if you will. Ah well...that's my philosophical input for the day. So thanks to Hayley for convincing me to be "relaxed audra" and trying not to control everything around me. It's definitely difficult...b/c i'm such a control freak and anyone who has ever met me can tell that. But...i'm getting better! So anyway...

To all those who read my blog, thank you for reading what i have to write! And have a fantastic day and i hope your weekend is positively wonderful!!!!