Well...as promised i was going to put some lyrics up here today. However, i still can't seem to come up with one song that really encompasses my feelings. So...i'm going to make a conglomeration (yeah...that's an SAT word) or a whole bunch of different lyrics.

I tear my heart open/i sew myself shut/and my weakness is that i care too much

just fade away/please let me stay/caught in your way

How come i never hear you say/i just wanna be with you/i guess you never felt that way

To be yourself is all that you can do

I got my feet on the ground and i don't go to sleep to dream/you got your head in the clouds and you're not at all what you seem/this mind this body and voice can not be stiffled by your deviant ways/so don't forget what i told you don't come around i got my own hell to raise

Just call my name you'll be okay/your scream is burning through my veins/sooner or later you're gonna hate it/go ahead and throw your life away/driving me under leaving me out there/go ahead and throw your life away

This should have been my time/it's over it never began

and more importantly than anything...

And the daffodils look lovely today

So tomorrow...i believe that i'm going to make a list of all the things that make me happy. I've decided that my time to wallow in my sorrow has now ended...and i'm gonna try and concentrate on the good things that i have now. So...be prepared tomorrow for a much more uplifting post than you've seen of late. Tomorrow is the big day. Strangely i'm not as nervous as i feel i should be. Which usually means that tomorrow i will have a panic attack of epic proportions. That's the way it always works.

Whoa...i totally forgot some uber important lyrics.

I wanted you to know/i love the way you laugh/i wanna hold you high and steal your pain away

It started out with a kiss how did it end up like this/it was only a kiss/it was only a kiss